Title, Validation, My Worth.

I'm connected on so many social networks, but feel connected to no one.
I use to enjoy drinking, but it's just not fun anymore.
Use to love parties, but I just dont fit anymore.
Clothes, shoes, and jewlery, they just arent important to me anymore.
People think I'm crazy because I'd rather learn more about my creator, than not know him and still get to enjoy the things He created.
They call me crazy because I believe there is more to life than making money just to spend money on temporary highs.
See I'm very familiar with the lows, you know trying to keep up with the Jones's, but living on a project budget.
I want to make a difference right. But they tell me I can't do it without a degree or some type of "license".
Why cant I just wake up, go to place full of hopeless people, and just love them?
Why do I have to be  Dr. Evangelist, prophet, preacher?
Why can't I just be woman, daughter, sister, friend, follower of Christ? Why do I need a title?

Vulnerability & Transparency...

It's been a long while since I've posted anything new, mainly because I don't have a computer right now and typing on my phone just got very annoying. Oh but thank the Lord for mobile apps.
I'm hoping now, I can post more.  Even though not many people visit my blog, it brings me freedom, and for the few people who can actually understand where I'm coming from, I pray it brings you freedom as well.
From here on out expect nothing less than vulnerability & transparency... THIS IS REAL LIFE!

V. Rose - Cry Holy (New Pop/ R&B 2011)

Feelings vs. Truth...

A friend of mine has this writing from John Piper printed out & posted on her wall in her room. I decided to write it in the front of my journal, to be reminded of these powerful words, every time I read it, it has the same effect on me... Hope it does the same for you :)

My feelings are NOT God. God is God. My feelings do NOT define truth. God's word defines truth. My feelings are echoes and responses to what my mind perceives. And sometimes --- many times --- my feelings are out of sync with the truth. When that happens --- and it happens everyday in some measure. --- I try not to bend the truth to justify my imperfect feelings, but rather, I plead with God: Purify my perceptions of your truth and transform my feelings so that they are in sync with the truth. That's the way I live my life everyday. I hope you are with me in that battle.  -John Piper.

Stand Firm!!!

Read Acts 20:18-38

No matter what the situation

may look like, no matter the

threats, no matter how fearful

the enemy may try to make you.

DO NOT WAIVER IN THE TRUTH.

DO NOT GO AGAINST THE WORD OF GOD.

BE OBEDIENT, TRUST THE WORD OF GOD.

DO NOT ALLOW THE WORDS, VIEWS, OR WAYS

OF BOTH PEOPLE OF THE WORLD, AND PEOPLE

IN THE CHURCH CAUSE YOU TO 2ND GUESS OR

GO AGAINST WHAT GOD HAS SHOWN YOU, OR TOLD YOU TO DO.

"God has the FINAL say so"

point. blank. period.

-SELAH

March 11, 2010 Journal Entry...

"Before I proceed to share this entry with you all I'd like to answer a question that I'm sure readers of  my blog have probably asked themselves before... Why does this blog contain such personal words/info? In a nutshell, I truly believe that my experiences, thoughts, mistakes, etc are not only for me to learn from, but also for others. Enjoy ;)"

I'm so upset and annoyed with myself. I can't just go blaming things on "my flesh", "the devil", or "the world". Sometimes it's just me, my lack of self-control, and my lack of understanding. But I'm learning just how desperately I need Jesus. I AM WEAK..."I AM NOTHING WITHOUT CHRIST" has become a reality to me. The Gospel, who God is, who I am, ALL of it has become ALIVE to me.  I will die without Jesus, Literally. I sometimes allow these earthly things and problems cloud my mind/vision. But reality is, my heart knows truth and that's what I need to hold on to. Thank You Jesus that if I lose my grip, He's there to hold me up, there to pull me back into the light of truth. Circumstances will no longer determine how I feel, or if I will trust the Lord or not. I will trust the Lord at all times, His word shall continually be in my mouth.

-Selah

Don't allow negative words spoken over you/by you

the opportunity to dwell in your heart. Speak Life and

only receive/give room for Life to dwell in and around you.

Don't allow death/negative words shape who you are in Christ!

No Worries

Read Isaiah 45:9-13

God is in control. He is at work in me and around me.

He is my maker, therefore He knows what I need.

He will direct my way. As long as I stay submitted

to Him I have NOTHING to worry about.