I often find myself trying not to think about you. It literally hurts me to. My heart aches and my whole body gets heavy :( thinking about you just brings back so many memories; great memories. Thinking about you use to make me feel like I was doing something wrong, which made me run from my own feelings. But I'm tired of running, I'm ready to face them. Every time I think your just a distant memory, something ALWAYS comes along to remind me of you. Even as i write this letter, with each push of a button my heart aches to just see you one more time, to talk to you one more time, see you smile one more time. You were my friend and I Loved you. Every time I think of you I think of THEM; every friend I've lost to the violence of this world (Robert "Roberto" Jackson, Jasmine Payne) & every friend I'm losing/lost to the deceptions of this fading world. Even though you are no longer here on this earth, you remind of Life. How quickly it can end, no matter how young, attractive, talented, or ill prepared we are. Life can end *snaps fingers* just like that! There are so many thing I wish I could've shared with you, so many things I hope someone shared with you... I MISS YOU!
I will not Stop telling people about the one who holds the key to eternal life in his hands. JESUS; the way, the truth, & the Life. It is inevitable, we will all pass away one day; so let's make sure we're ready to stand before the Lord...
Ps. I truly thank God for pens & paper...Don't hold it in; let it out, write it down! There is freedom in confession :)
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